We Wish We Aren't

They sold instant oatmeal at the coffee shop furthest south,
closest to the warehouse,
and I flinched a little when you asked how it tasted.

27 and talking about our boyfriends
there's a knowing hesitation
if I make a mess with my tea leaves am I less of this thing?
if we pick it apart are we less of this thing?
and what, well,
what are the fronts of resistance?
When we shake our head and talk about jobs and rings.

We both pulled out phones out when we could not find the warehouse

and I could not 

not comment

at the things we wish we aren't.