This morning I sat in bed eating a blueberry knish
I thought of you
The first time we met in the rain
We wanted to go to an Italian restaurant
We each had a favorite we tried to take the other to
But they had both closed
You ordered fettuccini Alfredo and I eggplant parmigiana
Like we always do

Our second date lasted 9 hours
Brunch and long walks through the park and a movie
Holding hands and stopping ever so often for a kiss or two
Ending in a Halloween store where we tried on all the costumes and laughed at ourselves
Before buying out all the candy in the store

Our third date was BBQ and I later dreamed of the candied bacon we shared

During the hurricane you made the 2 hour trek out to cuddle with me

Three months later it was my birthday
and you showed up and I heard you sing for the first time
You were embarrassed but your voice was beautiful

Four months later and I wonder where this is going
and why it's so hard to find time to spend together
how someone's phone could die so often
I think maybe I love you at times
but then I think I'm crazy to think that
and wonder if maybe you love me
if it matters anyway
whether or not it makes sense for us to keep seeing each other